is a small old man
who wants to get out.
No bigger than a two-year-old
whom you’d call lamb-chop
yet this one is old and malformed.” —Rumpelstiltskin by Anne Sexton
So I met this chivalrous prince charming. We had a great thing going all night.
I held his drinks while he lit his cigarettes, all in the middle of a raging mosh pit.
Classy and trashy 2012
Sometimes, there’s so much to the story that others don’t know.
And sometimes, that story never gets told.
Everything about that was beautiful.
Elizabethan trousers. YES.
“I dreamed I stopped traffic in my maidenform bra”
Physical love is a delight-
one to be chewed upon as often and as freely as a handful of sesame seeds.
It’s silly how sometimes, you’re so certain of not belonging.
You’re so certain that those joyful smiles aren’t yours.
You’re so certain that those bright sunny mornings aren’t meant for you.
You’re so certain that no one quite understands those little gestures.
Sometimes, you’re just so certain that this life doesn’t belong to you anymore.
Certainly, it never has. It was never meant to be. And it never will.
I’m certain though that those trialed tears aren’t yours.
I’m certain that those whispered secrets weren’t meant to be exposed.
I’m certain of the endless transfiguration in this unmarked world.
I am most certainly certain that I just don’t belong.
PLAYBOY: How many times have you used LSD, Dr. Leary?
LEARY: Up to this moment, I’ve had 311 psychedelic sessions.
PLAYBOY: We’ve heard about sessions in which couples make love for hours on end, to the point of exhaustion, but never seem to reach exhaustion. Is this true?
PLAYBOY: How often have you made love under the influence of LSD?
LEARY: Every time I’ve taken it. In fact, that is what the LSD experience is all about. Merging, yielding, flowing, union, communion. It’s all lovemaking. You make love with candlelight, with sound waves from a record player, with a bowl of fruit on the table, with the trees. You’re in pulsating harmony with all the energy around you.
PLAYBOY: Including that of a woman?
LEARY: The three inevitable goals of the LSD session are to discover and make love with God, to discover and make love with yourself, and to discover and make love with a woman.” —Interview between Dr. Leary and Playboy, 1960